New decade, new mindset huh? Bye, 2019!
I refrained from making a super long “year-in-review” post with all of my highlights from the year. I didn’t feel like taking a handful of my “high” moments and calling that my year, because tobe honest: it wasn’t. This being said, I’d be lying if I said that 2019 sucked, cause there are so many blessings to account for this year. I learned a lot about myself these past 365 days, some good and some bad.
I don’t understand or truly know everything that’s going on in this time of my life. But I do know this: I will never stop praising,serving, or loving God. No matter what happens to me I can’t seem to fully shake the notion that God has left me, that He’s not here with me, that He’s not real, or that I’m not here on purpose. (On Purpose) I have had a lot of verses to cling to in this past year and a lot of friends to motivate me and I hope you could find the same in the days to come.
I hope that if this year hasn’t been “your” year or hasn’t been as glamorous or as successful as someone else you’ve seen on your timeline, that you would not contemplate the idea that God has left you or is mad at you.
I hope you don’t let your mistakes drown out your victories. I hope you know your past failures don’t sabotage your future because the mistakes you’ve made don’t mean your future is ruined. I hope you know that no matter how far you’ve gone, God has already calculated your mistakes and He’s waiting for you to come back. I hope you know God can heal you from the hurt you encountered this year.
I hope you know it’s okay if your year wasn’t glitter and gold because life isn’t always peaches and cream. I hope you know you can make it and God loves you. I hope you know that if no one else this year has loved you like you think you should be loved, that you would try God next year. I hope you love yourself in spite of your mistakes and acknowledge the person you are now to be the person God has made you to be. I hope you know when *insert situation here* happened, God was hoping you would come to Him with your questions, doubts, fears, and shame so that He could help and heal you.
Sweetheart I hope for you. Because this year and this very moment I’ve had these hopes for me. I believe the God who started this work in me will finish it. And that goes for you too. Say hello to 2020 in faith. Take heart.
With Love,
Kaitlin
she who abides. 